Depressed

Been feeling a little down.. Trying to make this life a better day for me... been thinking a lot about Erica... I know she is in a better place but she is my baby sister.. Its hard to deal with this ordeal...As well to know that's its reality and she is not here...Accepting that fact is hard... I wish I could of told her I loved her so much...She knows I always tried my best to see her... But back in the days things we can't take back..Now its just to late...That person knows it and now has to live with that in their hearts... I know its hard to deal with things. I figure if i write this I will feel better.. She is looking down on us. I feel her all the time around me and that freaks me out at times. I know she doesn't mean any harm she is my big angel.