Daddy

I sit here thinking about my father that made me in this life would
I ever be happy just because I have a lot of questions I would love
To ask the man that gave me life
I get scared sometimes as
A child I would have love to ask him many questions in my mind I feel lonely in this world of mines
The pain I have my heart skips the beat would I ever know what I am missing in this life
Tonight I feel so out of it music to me is my Remy to everything doesn’t
Anyone see my sadness behind this smile of mines
I have so much hate towards this world why am I here?
Why was I made?
I wish I could get a sweet whisper from daddy to tell me everything is gonna be fine baby girl!
Just lay on him and hold me tight and don’t ever let me go
I long for your embrace daddy
I wish you were here for me
All my life you were gone but you have been in my head like if you were here
I wish mommy and daddy would’ve been together, but
I believe that’s how destiny work
There is nothing I could do
Your missing from my arms and I wish you could hear me out I know when we see face to face I feel funny because you have not been there for me
But daddy I know someday I will bypass this and grow up
To be an important women someday
I thought love was a fairy tale but what I feel towards
You is an everlasting love
But I know you were an unfit father and wasn’t there for me
All I can say to you is this
I forgive you daddy………….
Written: FiFi
4/5/04

"Decisions"

Written by Fifi 3/30/04

It’s so hard at times and I try and try
To keep on loving you
Its like I love you
But I don’t want you I cant hold this pain anymore
I say things that I really don’t mean to
I wish I could sometimes turn back the hands of times
And would of made my life so different now
I could’ve made my first love the man of my life
But I decided to be with a jerk that gave me too
Beautiful kids that I adore and I would do anything to make then happy
I know I be stressed out but god only knows what he has in stores
The love that I have for you leaves day by day
But then I stop and think of my kids cause there are the
Only ones that move me and make me a stronger woman till this day
I just want my kids to have a father role model and they can say there
father was there
But between us I don’t think is going nowhere

I WANT TO KNOW WHAT LOVE IS

I would give anything to be with you at this moment
So I could feel your comfort if I could steal one more night
With you I would turn time back to that night we had and share
All those feelings an joy but baby if you knew how much
My heart deserve to be by your side
And feel that embrace that I have not felt from any other man
We are here taking these crazy chances to be together cause we both know we
are miles away from one another the love we have
No one can take that away
I’m here home waiting for you by the window hoping my prince would come and
swept me away from my sorrow
I get nervous just thinking about how we going make this happen
Just cause destiny work in mysterious ways
When I see you your eyes they make me feel like I’m in another level
I want you to show me love cause baby I want to know what love is again
please guide me through your eyes and make me feel I know you can show me
baby show me love
And guide me through one more day and make me happy
Cause no one can make me feel they way you do baby

Written by: FiFi
March 21, 2004

GOTTA MOVE ON

Written by T Kirton and Fifi

Verse 1
I’ve cried for you too long
‘Cause you’re always treated me so wrong
But It shall not go on
‘Cause I’m gonna stand up for what's rights
You know it wasn’t right Adlib(so did I)
This ain’t no time to play around
You should’ve tried to hear me out

(Chorus)
Gotta move on, Gotta be strong
Gotta find me someone
Who ain’t gonna treat me wrong
Don’t need your charm
All you did was brought me harm
Gotta move on, gotta be strong

Verse 2
All I brought to your life was happiness
What did you give me in return? Ad lib (Madness)
The way you treated me was unfair
I know that I’ll find someone who will care
Someone I can talk too and it would be true
It's gonna took me a while but he ain't gonna make me cry

Or tell me a bunch of lies
that was you all the way

So I gotta move on I can't stay

(Chorus 2x)

MY PAIN MY FEARS

Written by Fifi

Verse1

When you love someone
With all your heart
Never knew if he creped behind
‘Cause my love for him is so deep

He made me blind all the time
Now is that I realize
What a waste of time
He was for my life

Chorus
My pain, my fears
My love, my tears
They will never disappear
After you were done with me
And left me here

Verse 2
Now I sit back and think bout
The love he left behind
He didn’t take the time
To compromise
He thought I wasn’t worth a dime

Chorus 2x

Now look at you
Trying so hard
Stop crying and realize
The replacement has been done
I have found me someone else

MY HEART SPEAKS

When we speak my heart

Aches I try to tell myself
Everyday this pain will go away
I look at myself in the mirror
Thinking what we have will
Ever be the same

But I was wrong thinking the man that I love was there for
Me and coming to find out. He was never there
All I got was bad vibes from him
I would cry and cry
About this asshole that didn’t give three fucks about me
I ask my god above to help me with this man
That I have been with and I have shown him
Everything I got but I guess he will never see
It through his eyes what I have for him
Cause he is selfish and he will never do no wrong

But I have seen it all through my eyes
And I always forgive him
Should I take this or leave this
God please forgive me for what I have done
I try to deal with this pain and I can’t take it any more
Jesus if your the only person that can help me
Then please show me the light as the answer that I’ve been looking for
Cause Im tired of looking for the answer
If he is the man for me please show me the path

He has caused me a great deal of pain
And Im here praying to you day to day
Life is to short to be dealing with this I want a man that is worth my day
I’m going to say that I have been speaking to god and he is talking to me
If you understand what Im saying I have been dead for 5 years now
Cause he killed me cause he thought I was getting in his business
So women please don’t be naive when we have something bad near us even if it
hurts us we have to learn to let go

"So Blind"

Written by Fifi and T Kirton

Verse 1
Why must you be so jealous of me
It's your man that's after me
I tried to block him out of my way
He keeps calling me everyday

What can I say…
Seems like you're not doing your thing
'Cause he keeps going to stray

Baby girl why must you be so blind
Can't you see your man
Your man really after me

(chorus)
Girl why must you be so blind
I'm gonna open up your eyes and mind
And bring the truth to you
So you would see and realize
What kind of man you have

Verse 2
Then I tried to tell you he ain’t really that big of a shii
Cause we both know we’re only in it for the sex
So, you should know bye now
What I’m trying to say

(Chorus 2x)

TIME GOES BY

Times goes by and I think I have been falling for this one guy
That I have been talking too for a while
I see his eyes lighting up mines his lips are so soft
His touch I can feel it in my spine and the way he makes love
Drives me up to the walls like a racing car
That takes me to a natural high

Boi are you feeling me like I'm feeling you
I been he thinking of you
And I hope you too
I know we don’t see each other as much
But when we do we gonna have fun with each other
And show our ever lasting love that we don’t share when
We are not near one another

I know you be thinking what am I doing when I not near you
But I hope u can trust me and can be understanding
I do think the same thing cause I know we don’t live in the same state
But if u are willing to do this
Then so am I cause we can have an everlasting love
That no one can take that from one other

"WASTE OF TIME"

Written by Fifi and T kirton

Verse 1
I remember when we first met
Loving you i wouldn't regret
That's what you told me
In all reality you were selling me dreams

I thought you were here for me
But I got caught in his game
From the things i started to see
Not knowing he was just playing me

(Chorus)
Why must you....Adlib (waste my time)
Didn't you see what you did to me

You was killing me inside
Now all i do is cry
'Cause it was a waste of time

Verse 2
Playing with my heart he was
I Remember that night
I was waiting for his call
2, 3, 4 in the morning

He had promise to give me his all
On that night i fell....Ad lib (Fell)
Into his trap now when i look back
It was a waste of time

(chorus 2x)

Adore

It’s so hard to love someone that you truly
Adore and would do anything for that love
It hurts when no one loves you and you want to ripe
Your heart apart cause that person doesn’t love you like you do
You feel like your nothing without that person
And you feel all lonely

That person treats you like shit
And you try to bypass all that cause your love is greater then a mountain
You would do anything for them
Your life is like roses
You think that person will never leave you
Can’t you see you were all I always wanted

This must be right but why don’t you love me
Like I do I've always given you the eye before we even started
This is were you belong but you know what I can’t force you to love me like
I do
It’s all up to you to take the chance in taking that step
But I can tell you, you swept me off my feet
All I wanted to do is spend my time with a lovely man like you
Do you agree?

Burning

I want you so bad is crazy it burns
The burning desire I get from you
when we make love it out of this world
Can’t you see you’re the only man that makes me feel like this?
The room is all humid with your sweat and mines
The love is wondering all around damn papi you got so good
Your love I could feel it so deep and can’t you feel it too
I just want it every min and every hour and promise me you love me
I never knew a lover like you
You never lost your touch till this day
Nobody knows but its true I will and never give you up for no one
I’m nothing without you your not here just for love It’s the love and
passion we share

Knowing

I try to stick to this plan finding out this was a choice I made for myself in my life
I have done things in my life that doesn’t make me a better person
But I know god from above sees what I do and he is the only one that can
judge me and I try to tell other people that the only person that can do that is the
man from above I love my family with all my life and I don’t ever want to turn my back on
them Cause they are the only that can do anything for
Even though you get mad at them because they will always say things that get
us mad But that’s how life works and no one is perfect I can truly say that because
I seen it with my own eyes and I feel bad that my man has to go through this
with his dad I know his dad loves him but he says things out of anger and
he loves his son no matter what things will get better my man disrespect him
he doesn’t understand also he is losing him by that how are you ever going
to earn that respect you are yearning for and I know baby  you had a ruff
life and you had to do things that a kid wouldn’t ever image in his
childhood baby  I learn things the hard way also being I was hard head and I
never wanted to listen and always saying I know everything guess what I
don’t know everything cause when are young we think we do and I can prove
trust I also have a lot of anger and I have felt neglected by a lot family
members and friends that’s why I stay to myself I'm a girl that some people
look at me and judge me you know what people change I try to be strong all
my life and I thank god I didn’t turned out to be a crazy women cause  I
stopped when I hit that rock and realize that life has better choice for me
I knew then and there I'm a better person and all I’m trying to say to you,
you have to make a choice and sit down and think what you want to do with
yourself that hurts me that you  going through this cause deep down I know
you are a good person right now my heart races so fast cause I’m worry about
you and I can’t live my life like this anymore I’m telling you right now
think about what you do cause you going lose a father but I can’t get in it
just cause that your business with him all I can do it comprise about this
ordeal being in love is big problem is it enough for you I don’t know what
to tell you I promise I will be here for in whatever you need me too like a
shoulder, ear, kiss, hug baby I'm here I don’t want to lose my focus on this
planet called earth I found someone that is worth the wait so think about it
I’m not here to play I’m here to show you love something that you never had
and be there for you because you need it I saying all this to you because I
love you so keep you eyes wide open life is very short to holds things back
and you have to learn how to forgive and forget

Breaking Inside

Me and you have been through a lot of things
Tell me what you want to do
This ordeal has breaking my heart
I loved so much and I don’t need to take this
I would’ve done anything for you
If you want to play with me play with this
I had enough I don’t have to take this and I know you
Don’t realize what you have done
I know I have done a lot of mistake and there are a lot of haters
But u have to know I know, I know where I want to be
Every time I see you I remember all the time we made love
And I don’t want to lose my focus
I lost my mind don’t you see
I’m trying to collect myself
And then you come running to me telling me
You love me and now you come and tell me
You might have my child
I knew you lying to me
Why do that to me that’s something I’m very serious about
But if it were true ill take care of my kid but I wouldn’t want to do
anything for you
Remember this I use to love you running back to me is not help
We are done with all these games now
And if u want it I won’t give it to you me
Cause I wont surrender to your lies
Today is a new day I know when I met you swept me off my feet
But things are not the same it was almost 5 years of things that we both did
to each other
There were times I wanted to pick my phone and call you
But I knew if I did I was failing to my own fait
The moral of this is that I can’t be with you anymore

Needing

There will never be a day if I will ever say I need you or miss I
want to give my all to you but being far from me makes it hard and your arms
not here with me touching caressing me when we were together it was so good
loving you I would of never thought it would get this strong for you baby
don’t take me for granted baby I would do anything for loving you is easy it
comes so naturally I would give you whatever any man would love to have any
women the wonderful things you do for me it got me feeling blue and not
having you by my side if I’m right about you I thank god that he put you in
my path I know you will do anything for me and right now you in this stage
in life things are hard loving you is not easy as you can see from this
moment sometimes I think I was not meant to be in this earth I remember the
first time we meant I saw your eyes I was like damn and I was happy to see
you and I’m so proud what I have in my hands I don’t want to let it go for
nothing in this world you protect me like I’m your lucky charm that you
would carry which I’m speaking  about your heart thank you for loving me
baby I’m so glad you in my life and can’t wait to share many more fun times
and up’s and down’s you heal my pain anytime something happens to me and you
do whatever it Takes for you to be there for me and no one has been there
for me we are like a song that anyone would like to have man like you I love
you I get so emotionally thinking about my man and there is none like my man
in this world and can’t replace you I’m sorry if I ever did or said anything
to hurt you !!!!!!!!!!!! I don’t know how to get you out of my mind I’m
being here as tough as much as I can I know you are reading these words and
maybe your crying or your feeling all blue but angel I would do anything for
you cause your always be my number one I’m here trying to do all I can to
get us back as one  are you ready to be my everything baby this I can
promise I will wait for you till you back to me this is for real we have to
be fast and do what we have to do you know what I mean and  I have thought
that would not be in this big head of mind but I know I’m strong and I know
I’m ready for this LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!